Not From Here, Yet Still Love

Those of you who know me well, are already aware of this. Maybe you are reading my blog, this page specifically for the first time ever. Maybe you already know I have a blog. Whatever the case is, I still am sharing it, because everytime I watch any movie with sci-fi, fantasy or even philosophical themes, it gets me thinking. DEEP. And the Outlander movie from 2008 wasn't left behind.

Finished watching Outlander a couple of days ago. The title might be familiar to you because there is also a series with the same name. In short, the movie goes about a man from an advanced (ET human) civilization where his people conquered another planet filled with some monstruous-kinda-looking creatures, and killed them all of course, to make space for their own population to settle there (similar to what Elon Musk plans to do with Mars but without the killing part I hope).

Then, turns out some of these creatures survived and killed his wife and son and other people that established themselves there. Seems one got on his starship and got to Earth, in the ear of the vikings where he crashed in a lake. Then the whole movie is about trying to cooperate with the vikings for the common goal... but I will not spoil the ending of course. We are not here for that.

This blog post is to express on how alien, and lonely even, we might feel on Earth. Because this movie triggered some thoughts into me.

How alien, literally, I feel to Earth... And how, connected I am at the same time. Contrary to what I felt before when I had my first spiritual awakening, and as I'm piecing all my memories together, I believe now I came here to this planet many many centuries ago, and I started helping humanity... Might be during times of Atlantis and Lemuria, the capitals of the great intergalatic exchange of cultures (similar to the United Nations but without the corruption and way better, by the way!) and then, eventually, I started loving earth humans. Because I love humanity. I feel it in my heart. Despite how cruel they are, despite all the wars, the twisted narcissists and psychopaths, all those perversions... It can't just come out of nowhere.

You might resonate with this, but I feel connected and out of place at the same time.

So I believe, and feel (because I felt like crying when the realization came - and I always take it as a sign when strong emotions come with these situations) that I came millions of centuries ago, stayed with humans and came to love them, appreciate them (similar to what happens in the movie Celestials from Marvel; strongly recommend to watch it as it will evoke starseed memories TOO), and then eventually started to reincarnate here on Earth and get attached so lessons needed to be learnt and transmuted over the years spent here. Just a hunch.

I'm still learning more about myself but watching these two movies mentioned really hit deep inside me on why I feel so conected to so many cultures, but still feel out of place at the same time. I grew up, Celtic, Irish and even Nordic paganism being strong in my soul, but then recently when I started to reconnect with my Slavic ancestry, I started to feel a type of way too!

In fact, one of the things that deeply resonated within me about Slavic paganism is the fact that most spells, rituals and incantations are done verbally, especially singing for example!