Starseed daughter in a narcissistic family

I still remember that summer back around 2017, I believe, when we were getting the stuff out of the car after going to the beach in Tarragona. Time to get back to our rented beach apartment to clean ourselves from the sand and have a nice lunch.

I don't know why, but after my spiritual awakening back when I was 14-15 years of age, I was so excited. I wanted my parents, my earth family, to understand me. I wanted to share all those stories, visions of my past lives to be heard by them so we could get to the next step of trust. I felt it was time. I hid long enough. The environment was also calm and they were laughing with random jokes my father and brother created.

Or so I thought.

"uhm.. I wanted to tell you something."

They briefly turned my heads to me, now I realised to listen to whatever nonsense I had, but before I thought they would really listen, you know?

"I don't come from here. My home is Pleiades. I incarnated."

From here, my vision is a bit blurry as my brain distorts and forgot the memories in order to protect my initial shock when they started laughing at me. "Elisa, how could you done this? You know humans don't take this shit seriously" I really, felt so ashamed of myself. I wanted to cry. I wanted to disappear. Even my brother joined the fun on mocking me. My mother however, took it very personally.

I didn't know before that she only saw me as an extension of herself, to which I will mention later today... but it was really horrible. Telling them I wasn't from here felt even worse than telling your parents you're LGTB+. Even in our liberal society in Europe, this topic was still seen as something "weird". I guess they started to believe I was nuts, even though I was always the shy, head-in-the-clouds girl for them.

Years forward, 4 or so, it got worse. As my level of consciousness was expanding, my gifts awakening, it seemed like what I saw as a quite normal family, was getting to a huge toxic level I could not even imagine. Fights and arguments started to get very common in our household. I started to question every thing in our family dynamics, how things were done and made. Seems my parents did not like the "traditions" being questioned. So much to the point I became the family Scapegoat, as my brother claimed the Golden Child seat. He was very happy, I don't blame him. Being the Golden Child, on the outside, had so many benefits - one of them having the special treatment of the "best" child in the family (that is, if you do as the parents say). My brother suffered from being the sibling in the shadows. My mother constantly complained how he had overweight, and they treated him very badly to be honest. What he still did not realise, is that no matter the role in our family, abuse was something you couldn't avoid, in one way or another.

It was survival of the fittest, as he mentioned this often.

Every day was pure hell. The last years before moving out, I remember not even wanting to wake up. Not only they got very angry when I got out with friends to relax, but when I came home, they scolded me for every single, tiny detail. One time my father opened the door to my room when I was sleeping (they never knocked the door either) and scolded me for creating a scandal. Oh, I didn't.

What actually happened was that I told my brother via text that my mother thought "I" got into his brain and told him to study psychology. Then, seems that while I was outside my brother told them they wouldn't manipulate him or make him do whatever they wanted, and of course they got triggered, ending up blaming me for soemthing they clearly were at fault with.

On a more energetic sense, everytime I was happy, I noticed how they seemed to be jealous, and sabotaged my happiness till I wasn't happy anymore. Every step I took towards independence, their emotional reactions got worse and worse.

It wasn't something I didn't know about. I knew exactly what was happening. Narcissists have entities attachments in their bodies, hence the aggresiveness, the horrible qualities they show to you. They are not the same person you once knew. And sadly this is not discussed enough, but with the mental health stigma in todays's world, it's very common for any to have entities manipulating them.

I have talked with people in the spiritual community that believe we need to send them love and light. Demons hate love, as it's the most powerful energy in the universe. And I agree. But growing up in an abusive family while being a starseed, you need to be more informed than just the "send love to them" phrase that it's thrown every time.

It's spiritual warfare. I wasn't only fighting for my survival, I was also fighting against the entities that were attacking me through them.

I think that one of the worst realizations, was to understand that I was no longer in a loving environment where honesty, transparency and kindness prevail in higher dimensions. I came to Earth, a planet with dense energies, illnesses, diseases and lots of unprocessed traumatic events went on generation to generation.

If you ask me now, ironically enough too, I'm grateful that I have went through this experience, because it has helped me to show first hand how demonic and aggresive possessed humans can act, and the approaches, techniques, and mindset my clients need to fully recover, heal... and THRIVE.

It took me years still to heal (and still I'm purging of what no longer serves me) from the C-PTSD, so many unhealthy mechanisms I developed: anxious and fearful avoidant attachment sometimes when my mental health struggled, imposter syndrome, low self esteem, insecurities in my physical body, struggles to speak my voice out loud in an assertive way...

And if you ask me, it's no surprise that many starseeds incarnate in broken, dysfunctional families in order to heal the old limiting beliefs and shift timelines. We are here to change how Earth was working before, and into the 5D lifestyle. As in higher dimensions!

Even through possessions can be solved with a strong, powerful light, I would not recommend you to try this yourself because it can backfire; the entities would get triggered and you'll have even more attacks.

Instead, think and plan 5 steps ahead of the narcissist and focus on leaving. Same advice I hold for everyone. The narcissist has low chances of changing, and having low vibrational attachments is a lesson their soul has to experience.

Many times, as empaths and lightworkers, we try so hard to fix everyone, but it's also one of the lessons I learnt myself with my family. It's NOT your responsibility to fix or heal them.

As a lightworker, lightwarrior however, it's your sacred journey to stop the vicious cycle of trauma that went through your family lineage, and heal it. Trauma, stored and unexpressed emotions, traumatic events that went without healthily processing them... it all weakens our aura and energetic field, and opens holes for astral parasites and implants that limit our growth and development, keeping us stuck in toxic loops.

Because if you heal yourself, if you do the inner work yourself, you are already helping your ancestors. You can do the work without meeting them.

Plus, you got a whole team of spirit guides and your star family to assist you, whenever you need. Just need to call them for help! Remember they are not your toxic family members, and they are always happy to help you.

So much love!

your soul sister,

Elisa :)